August 14, 2009 was Aiden's 1st birthday, seven days after he passed away.
I stood at his grave and thought about how this is so unfair. He should be surrounded by family, eating his first cake, opening presents and playing with balloons.
I thought about all the firsts he will never have, his first steps, first haircut, first bike, first day of school. A whole lifetime of firsts. He never even got to taste ice cream, why the hell didn't I let him lick an ice cream cone! That would have been one more memory of his life I could have had.
There are so many things I should have done, I have so many regrets.